Can't Sleep

Sleeping pattern has been all over the place lately because my boyfriend works graveyard shift, so I have to get up early to pick him up from work. Then I end up sleeping in til the afternoon to make up for sleep.

Been doing a lot of thinking lately and feeling self conscious again. This has all been kicking in lately due to stress and missing a few things. Like, socializing with people and just hanging out. I haven’t done that in a while.  Not even go out even. Really starting to think Vancouver was not the city to move to. It’s really nice, but so expensive and the lack of jobs is really killing it. Plus this city is massive. Now I remember why I told myself I’d never wanna live here before I headed off to Edmonton. Too damn, big.

Also been dwelling on things that shouldn’t really bother me. It’s just really frustrating. Especially when it’s the past. I can’t help but have thoughts creeping up in my head that maybe the past has some truth, that you can’t change that part and that maybe that past is being missed.

I’m really just over thinking. I wish I had more confidence in myself so I didn’t doubt everything all the time. It’s really going to be the death of me.