Loneliest place in my life

chantheman:

Imagine wasting one of your teenage life by listening to radio everyday with no friends, getting fed instant noodles once a day for breakfast (my only meal of the day), someone not talking to you for 6 months pretending you don’t exist, getting yelled at for being a trouble maker every day for an hour, standing and looking out the window for 2 hours everyday for 6 months, crying every night under the blanket because you are worried about making noise, doing 1000 push ups everyday in your room because there is nothing else you could do, not having anyone who can help you open your heart and actually feel your heart is hurting everyday.

Imagine that…

:( This made me cry. I don’t know how anyone could treat anyone so bad without even knowing who you are and making assumptions you’re a bad person. Even if, this is just cruel.

Apple Fast

We lasted til 9pm. My boyfriend said I looked like a patient waiting to die at the hospital when I was holding up my 5th apple. So he said “Fuck it, were not doing this shit! I don’t care, were going to viet noodle! I’m buying”. So there we went!  OMG, it was so good. *~*

I just ate a korean cookie… I can’t give up food.

Job hunt & apple fast

Hopefully this will be the last city I move to for a while… it’s been really tough to find a job here.  Not just for me, but my boyfriend and brother too. I hope I find something soon!  Even just a retail job. No word on that yet either.

We all just started doing the apple fast today. I’ve just had two apples today and I’m already sick of it. Probably because I have to eat the core and seeds.. omg. After 1 apple, my boyfriend had a dream about being sick of it where he threw the apples in a blender and just chugged it.

I’m so hungrryy… but it’s for the benefit of body cleansing and losing weight… just 2 and half days to go…